But on the Second Thought...

English has never been fun for me. Maybe for some time. But I guess, I did only loved English because of my English teacher in grade school who have influenced me a lot. I totally believed in him so I was once active in joining the journalism competition with English as my category. I even went to regionals. But on my secondary years, I don't feel the energy anymore. Though hard to bear, so far in my college days, the energy I'm longing did not show up. In consequence, my grades are not that good.

In my 1st yr., 2nd sem. here in MSU-IIT, my Eng-2 schedule is on Wednesdays and Fridays. But this week, Friday doesn't have classes that is we only met last Wednesday. As soon as Ma'am had arrived in the room, I felt the rush of any busy people these days. She suddenly started the class which do add the coldness we're feeling that time since it was raining hard. We immediately exchanged papers and checked our assignments. After that, something urgent announcements were then shared to us. We won't be seeing a couple of meetings from now on because she is going to Manila. Like any normal students, we felt a bit of hapiness. But we were given lots of assignments so that bit of hapiness lost 90% of it.

That day, Ma'am discussed and corrected our work last meeting. Few were chosen to be read by her to be an example for everyone they should NOT follow. I was ashamed because my paper was corrected. Honestly, I felt disappoinments, discriminations, and stupidity at myself. Ma'am read my outline which was made by group and she said it was okay. But in my composition, it was written differently. She corrected me that I should follow my outline. But that time, I don't think that's corrections but criticisms. That very hour, I really want to bow my head because I felt sorry and will promise to make the best of it next time.

But on the second thought, after the class, I realized maybe that's the reason why my writings flank. They are not chosen to be winners. I thought the judging was just wrong.(hehe) Foolish am I, I should have blame myself.

I realized, I was really corrected, not criticized. Thank you Ma'am, I am inspired by your corrections. I will follow it.

So now, I think I'm feeling the energy to be liking English. I'm gonna practice speaking and writing it every now and then. I will do the most of it. But I shall write or speak English not to impress but to express. Next time, I won't make my compositions just an introduction for the whole article.

=D